Hippy Hoppy Haaaapppyyyyyy!!

I am SO happy.
My best friends are amazing and I've been gaining new friends just this past month who are all so very nice and fun! :)
I'm going to church and really trying to focus on what the most important thing is for me: my relationship with God.
When all else fails, HE'S the one that's always going to be there and love me no matter what.
School is going better and I've been doing really well in my classes! (Except Bio could use some work)
I'm looking into maybe joining Peace Corps to help others instead of helping myself.
There are so many people who have nothing when I have so much that I take for granted.
If I do this I think it'll help me be so much more thankful for everything that I have :)
Oh my goodness gracious I am just SO HAPPY right now! I want to go out and run and DO SOMETHING!!
I haven't felt this way in a while and I'm overwhelmed with happiness right now.
I could definitely get used to this :) :) :) :) :) :)
ahhhhh!! :D
<3

Letting Go Is Harder Than I Thought.

I've decided not to major in theatre.
I planned on majoring in theatre because it is my passion to act.
I wanted to move to LA this fall to start my life on my own.
But I now realize that maybe its not what God wants me to do.
Its hard because I want to do it so badly.
But nothing has fallen into place as far as a place to live or having enough money.
& I cant remember the last time I asked God what HE wanted me to do.
I've been selfish.
So I've been praying for a sign.
I've been praying for anything that will tell me what I'm supposed to do.
Because I have no idea.


He>me.

Thank You Captain Obvious.

I LOVE Twilight.

<333333

Im losing myself.

I'm going to tell someone something.
Its to a certain person.
They wont read this, but I don't want to call them.
Or talk to them in person.
I cant explain why I cant do it.
but this is what I want to say.
& I just need to vent.
This is not a pity entry.
I have to empty my mind or I'm going to go crazy.
& this is my blog so I can do it if I want to.
So here goes.
I know your 'who I'd like to meet' section is about me. You say you'd like to meet someone who is there when the time calls for it, and who isn't caught up in there own world. But you don't realize how much YOU have changed. All you freaking care about is your new boyfriend, who Ive tried to be nice to, but doesn't say a word to me.
Who's the one that asks how your home life is going? ME. Who asked how school was going for you? ME. Who got you safe when you were so drunk you punched someone and puked all over? ME.
I HAVE been there for you, but YOU'RE the one who's so wrapped up in their own world they cant see that for some reason.
I KNOW that I am a great friend.
I care about people more than they know.
I worry about how they are more than I worry about myself sometimes.
I pray and pray and pray for them.
& Ive prayed for you so much
because I know how hard life has gotten for you, and you don't deserve it.
But the thing is, YOU don't know how hard life has been for ME recently.
You never asked.
Not once.
I know you've had a lot of problems recently.
But do you know what I'VE been going through??
NO!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU DON'T!!!!!
Because
YOU DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!
I'm done. With everything.

Ode to Rob Pattinson

He just deserves to have his picture posted.

Blow Out The Candles

Soooooo.

February 28th is my 19th birthday.

Yay me. Last year of being a teen.

wow.

&& to celebrate, my best friend Katie and I are going to San Jose!!!!!!

We're going to the Film Festival there to see Rob Pattinson's Independent Indie Film.

Its called How to Be.

Ive wanted to see it ever since I saw a little clip of it and Im so completely pee-in-my-pants excited.

Maybe that was too much information? haha :D

But really. I'm suuuuuupppeeerrr ecstatic.

This is going to be the best birthday ever.

hmmm. :))))))

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Confession.

I wish I was as close to God as I used to be.