Thank You Captain Obvious.

I LOVE Twilight.

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Im losing myself.

I'm going to tell someone something.
Its to a certain person.
They wont read this, but I don't want to call them.
Or talk to them in person.
I cant explain why I cant do it.
but this is what I want to say.
& I just need to vent.
This is not a pity entry.
I have to empty my mind or I'm going to go crazy.
& this is my blog so I can do it if I want to.
So here goes.
I know your 'who I'd like to meet' section is about me. You say you'd like to meet someone who is there when the time calls for it, and who isn't caught up in there own world. But you don't realize how much YOU have changed. All you freaking care about is your new boyfriend, who Ive tried to be nice to, but doesn't say a word to me.
Who's the one that asks how your home life is going? ME. Who asked how school was going for you? ME. Who got you safe when you were so drunk you punched someone and puked all over? ME.
I HAVE been there for you, but YOU'RE the one who's so wrapped up in their own world they cant see that for some reason.
I KNOW that I am a great friend.
I care about people more than they know.
I worry about how they are more than I worry about myself sometimes.
I pray and pray and pray for them.
& Ive prayed for you so much
because I know how hard life has gotten for you, and you don't deserve it.
But the thing is, YOU don't know how hard life has been for ME recently.
You never asked.
Not once.
I know you've had a lot of problems recently.
But do you know what I'VE been going through??
NO!!!!!!!!!!!
YOU DON'T!!!!!
Because
YOU DON'T CARE!!!!!!!!
I'm done. With everything.