It's 1:00 a.m.

I've had sleep insomnia these past couple of days
& I hate just lying in bed staring at the ceiling.
That's when my mind whirls.
I think about everything.
I think about how stressed out I am.
I think about my dead-ends but I don't want to get a haircut.
I think about how many times I've skipped church on Sundays.
Which leads me to think of what a HUGE sinner I am.
I think about how selfish I am for trying to choose my own future
instead of wanting God to take control.
I think about how badly I want the future I'm planning for myself.
I think about how much I want taco bell.
I think about my future husband and what he will be like.
I think about love and if I will ever find it.
I think about how great it would be to be noticed. By everyone.
I think about how great it would be to fall asleep to forget everything I've just thought about.
hmmm.
<3