I've Come To Realize...

That I hate writing essays.
I HATE it.
Especially the topics.
Who cares about the difference between high school and college writing??
High school is over.
No need to bring it up again unless you're talking about loverly memories.
I'm not mad... I'm just...ehhhhhh.
I wish there was an actual word for what ehhhhhh is.
Cause that's how I feel.
School is keeping me from feeling positive emotions.
For example, I'm really excited about Sacramento.
But [yes I'm using but in the beginning of a sentence cause I'm mad a t English right now]
the worry of getting all of my homework in and passing tests in order to advance is so
downright scary I can't get to that full level of excitement you know?
I really hope I get my arse in gear and get motivated already.
I just don't like being in a classroom "learning" about things that are not going to be useful for me in my future.
I guarantee you that I am not going to have a job where I need to know how to use parenthetical citations or the Pythagorean theorem. [Which I still don't understand].
I don't like learning in a classroom being told this and that.
I like to find out for myself.
Therefore, college is definitely not for me.
But [ha!] in today's world, there really is no other option.
So I'll guess I'll just have to endure it.
hmmm. :/
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